I hate the way i feel all the time. When im happy i feel like its fake, even if i have reason to be happy.Things just seem to normal and sustained. I think i might be ignoring some huge glaring problems in my life, but i dont know how to face them because at a glance i seemingly dont care.I dont think something is wrong with my anymore though, so thats good, i think im insane in a normal way.. if that exists. Im tired and i should sleep, but i want to stay awake and feel cared about, even if im by myself. At the end of the day im the only one i can count on. Im getting used to that fact.I think thats why ive been succeeding so much. But dont worry something bad will come along, it always does. oh well, what can you do.